Poems

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Poems

I started writing when I was in 7th grade as a way to cope with then-undiagnosed mental illnesses. By 9th grade, I had filled multiple notebooks, and by 10th I started reciting poems to cope with inpatient. Eventually, I started crafting my own, using it as a translator for my emotions. As of 2023, I have 40+ poems written in the hopes of publishing a book someday. Here is a mix of poems I've written. My oldest would be A Life to my latest poem The Five W's. Comparing the them, you can read my abilities over time getting better as I hone my skills as a poet and storyteller. At the bottom of the page are hotline numbers for anyone who is suffering from depression or abuse or is thinking about running away.

10/14/2023 •

Mutually Ensure Destruction

I wrote this poem a few days after October 7th and reading the news. However, what pained me more than that day was reading the history of Isreal and the subsequent apartide that's existed there for decades. Seeing images of Gaza decimated into rubble, turning into an unliveable warzone. I read about the leveling of civilian infrastructure and watched unwavering support for a country committing genocide. This poem is to express my pain for the Palestinian people.

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The Five W's

This poem follows me asking myself the five w's. Who, What, When, Where and Why. The constant theme is me questioning who is to blame for my abuse as a child. As well as me expressing the anger I hold towards my parents. I do love them dearly, but there are things I have yet to forgive them over.

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A Life

This is probably one of my favorite and longest poems. It takes you thought my first suicide attempt and the following years that I suffer with depression. I'm happy to be in a better place today but it doesn't hurt to know where you've been.

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Breaking Point

This poem I actually started writing during work. It's about many issues I go through. The main theme of the poem is about the sexual abuse I suffered through my childhood.

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Fear

While the name is Fear, the poem isn't actually about anything I fear. Most people fear the unknown. So take the side of me that I keep hidden from my friends, family, and world. It's unknown and to be naturally feared.

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Forgoten

Here I tried to capture what I like to forget. So when I refer to my pain, I do so with the hopes that I won't think of it until I'm ready.

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Grief

You know how sometimes you'll take the scenic route on a roadtrip? This is how I address the way I grieve with my first suicide attempt. Recalling the way I felt and what was going through my mind.

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I'm Tired

So many things in the world bother me. Many happen over and over, or in some cases, are just ignored. Read me talk about this in my poem.

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Malnourished

At the time of writing this I was in a relationship and going through a rough patch. In retrospect, I failed at communicating properly. Yet in the moment I looked at my ex and saw them as not loving me in the way I needed most. So why include something like this? It's art.